The past couple of weeks have been a bit of an emotional whirlwind for me.
I recently entered into a dating relationship, I had to write my final papers and study for my final exam, I found out I have mild scoliosis, I was enduring a spinal pinched nerve and the pain, I’ve been preparing one of my classes of students for a tough competition, and I find myself having to be there more and more for my sons in their school work and in helping to keep them on track. In other words I have been emotionally and physically overwhelmed.
Just this morning, I had a bit of an emotional breakdown. I cried and cried and prayed. The feeling over me just felt close to unbearable at the moment, but I knew that this was Satan trying to put me down, overloading my mind with negative thoughts and the feeling that I couldn’t handle all these emotions.
You see, I have a certain stubbornness about me. It’s a part of that pride I struggle with in my sinful nature. I feel that if something does not go as I think it should at the time I feel it should, then I don’t feel that it is right. I start thinking there is something wrong with decisions I’ve made. I start doubting the very things that I have prayed for God to make clear to me. I start believing Satan’s lies.
Ephesians 6:12 says “For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms”. I learned a valuable lesson this morning.
Just after I went through this emotional moment, God revealed a truth so clearly that I didn’t see before. It was through a I message I received..it was very encouraging. Later that afternoon, I had a heart to heart talk with my best friend (that’s her in the picture below) and this also shed some light on what I was feeling. God spoke to me today, but He spoke in His perfect timing. All of a sudden it was clear to me what was in my mind was much worse that the reality.
The reality is this: God is always there with us. He never leaves our side. The reality is that Jesus can sympathize with us (Hebrews 4:15). The reality is that God’s timing is perfect. The reality is that God knows exactly what He is doing. This is so comforting to know. Praise be to God!